Life is so hard! It's like the unexpected hits you almost every day. For instance, like losing your job. This is more common than you think, unfortunately. Companies downsize to stay afloat, or implement more AI (Computer driven methods). Last year when my husband was let go from his position at a church. I lost my breathe. The painful weave of this circumstance was that I was having to leave all of my closest friends. How would we financially make it? My heart was aching and breaking. But God....
Hindsight is always 20/20. I am able to see clearly now. God had to step in and pull us away. Our season was over there. In our humanness we want to fight. While those reactions maybe human, they're not Christ-like. The Lord wants us to be still. He wants to fight for us. Exodus 14:14. His ways are not our ways. His thoughts are not our thoughts. He has our tomorrow in mind. He has our next week in mind. He has our next year in mind as He is prepping us for our future and next adventure with Him.
It doesn't always look like we want it to look. Quite frankly, God is not interested in having it look the way we want it. He has a master plan that His Mighty hand directs and orchestrates to make something beautiful out of our lives, if we allow Him.
I've watched my husband discover all kinds of things about himself. He is a fabulous teacher. He is full of tenderness and grace. I've discovered that life without my bosom buddies has been different but not impossible. God has become "bigger" in my life. I've grown to know Him more intimately in so many ways. I've learned how to be still. I've learned how to enjoy just sitting in His presence. It makes my heart sing!
Thursday, June 13, 2019
We've had the privilege of watching a mamma bird tend to her chicks. She built a nest in a wreath on our front door. Every day we'd peer thru the window as mamma would build the nest, to get it just so. And then one day we saw 1 egg, and then 2 eggs and then 4 eggs. As the eggs hatched, we had a first row seat of her taking care of them, as they "cried" for food she would tend to them. And then one day, as they got a little older, watching them all "outgrow" the nest. Literally! They got so big that they couldn't even fit into the nicely built home that mamma bird created. And so... the next chapter of their lives begin as they flew off. We're getting ready to do the same thing with our youngest child. He's graduated high school and is about to embark on the adventure of college life. I've been all over the place with my emotions. I have finally come to terms with it and I am embracing not only his new adventure but my own. Our entire married life we've had a baby underfoot. We've never had the pleasure of it just being the two of us. It will be a new found adventure for my husband and myself as we learn our "new normal" for just us two. I am thankful that we not only love each deeply, but we also like each other.